Vincent's Blog

  I have not blogged in like forever. I’ve been kind of sick. Sleeping a lot. Not feeling like myself. Lately it has sort of been like everything is a challenge. Even getting up in the morning. Especially when I have one of my killer headaches. But now I am feeling ok.

  The house is kind of full. Danny is here making pancakes. I can’t wait to eat. The only thing I can do in a kitchen is crack an egg. Oh yeah, I can make toast too. *L* The talent never ends.

  Time to go downstairs now and see if anyone needs me to crack an egg. Happy Late Valentine’s Day everybody

  Been a while since I blogged. Today is Saturday. It’s raining like crazy here but it’s kind of warm.  Odd weather. Christmas was good. My parents got me an Armani suit Thank you Mom and Dad. I also got some other clothes, some sheet music, a signed football from Mike Ditka. And some other cool stuff. I also broke my hand so it is taking me a long time to blog. I’m gonna go now. Gonna talk to my girlfriend in a few minutes. We’re going home to Sweden on March 13th too. That rocks.

  The past couple of weeks have been difficult. I really haven’t known how to be or how to act. It’s been a real battle for me. But today I woke up, and it was the first time I felt a little more like myself. I woke up with my little brother and I helped him study before I drove him to school. I have to pick him up in about an hour and a half. He’ll get all his finals done and then we’ll be able to hang out and enjoy his winter break. He’ll also get all his final grades back today. I think he’ll do really good. 

  We also met a new brother last night. Brody. He is really cool! He’s a fun guy. Kind of serious at times but he can be goofy too. He’s a lawyer and he’s just a real stand up guy. I can’t wait to get to know him better.  I really miss my mom and my girlfriend. Christmas is gonna be hard this year for sure. We’ll get through it though. I know we will.  

  I heard from Toby’s parents today. Toby’s funeral is going to be on Thursday at 11. He’s been cremated today and wow. I still can’t believe it. It’s so unreal to me. I’ve gone through so many emotions about this. I’ve been sad, angry, sick to my stomach. Then there are those moments when I think that he’s at peace now.  That he’s not stuggling or hurting.  But then I think that he was too young, what a waste. What a friend he was. Anyways, funeral is Thursday.

  I want my best friend back. I want to wake up from this nightmare. RIP

  Today, I have been watching this marathon thing of this show called “Flipping Out”. It’s basically about flipping house and this guy, Jeff Lewis, who does these remodelings his hillarious! He’s so rude to people that it’s great! So I’ve been kind of watching that today. Just hanging out. Being as useful as I can be. In about an hour and a half, I’m going to help Dion with some stuff over at the condo. Maybe Rick will want to come and help us out. I’ll help him with his homework if he helps me out with some of the physical stuff like carrying boxes and stuff. With Rick’s help, it would probably take like half an hour.

  Well, I am talking to Sanna now so I am gonna concentrate on her before I go help Dion. Later peeps!

  I just realized today that Thanksgiving is next Thursday!  Wow! Where does all the time go?  Thanksgiving should be fun. It always is. It will be tough though because my Mom and my Angel aren’t here. I can’t wait to celebrate Thanksgiving with them. Maybe next year we can all come out here and just hang out, celebrate Thanksgiving. I can’t wait to spend Christmas in Sweden. That will be fun as hell! But it will be right because I’ll be with my whole family. And I will be home.

  So in the meantime, I am just gonna focus on eating. I’m gonna eat everything. *L* Turkey, sweet potatos. I am just gonna eat my ass off the next month. That is what the holidays is about annyways. Eating. Later!

  Today I am handing over my “Da Man” title to Barack Obama! Oh man, he dosen’t need my “Da MAN” title but he gets it anyways! My first election. First time voting and it was an awesome experience! I don’t know if in 4 years, my brother will be able to vote because we’re  gonna be home in Sweden but if he has dual citizenship, maybe he can. I’m stoked!!

  I went to the doctor today because of these bad headaches I am getting and he gave me something for it. I’m still waiting for an MRI to be scheduled also.  I am talking to my Angel right now and then I’m gonna lay down for a little bit. And I want my Mom to know that I love her and I will be ok. I love my Angel too. Gotta bounce.

  What’s up? Been a while since I blogged. Saturday I graduated outpatient and I’m really glad that I don’t have to go there anymore.

  Today I am really tired. I have been having these headaches so today I went to the doctor. He gave me a physical, said I was in good shape and told me to take tylenol when I get a headache. I have been doing that though but I’m not worried. It’s not a big deal. He thinks it stress anyhow.

  Yesterday I went to the Bears game with my brother Rick, Niko, Caleb and our cousin Johnny. We haven’t seen him in a while and it was real cool to hang with him. He has a brother named Sean who is 21 and a sister, Samantha who is 23. John is 19. He’s a cool guy. We also had a good time on Friday night. Had this huge shaving cream fight at Prosell Park. I think Rick has to be the fastest out of all of us because he was just killing us. *L*

  I really miss my Mom and Sanna. I know they got a cat now so they’re busy teaching him how to give paw or something. *L* I never had a cat before so it’s gonna be pretty cool. Anyways, gotta go. Later

  3 more days and I’m done with outpatient. I am really looking forward to it. Today it seemed like the 2  hours dragged. I didn’t really feel like I got much out of it today simply because this guy wouldn’t shut up about how he feels like he’s going to use again. I was really losing my patience with him. I know that I am not like these people. I know I am not like them at all. I don’t have an itch or this longing to use anything. I’m just there because I felt I had to be there for me. I wanted to make sure I was iron clad. Today I didn’t feel like I was there for me. I felt like I was there just to be there. And that sucked! But I will go back tomorrow and the next day and then the day after that because I am not a quitter.

  On the bright side, Dad is looking a little better today. He’s really listening to Joe. He’s eating his wheaties and being a good patient. *L* I knew you had it in you Dad! I’m proud of you! I can’t wait for Dad to get better so we can get home! I really can’t wait to get to Sweden. It’s going to be the happiest day of my life when I land on Swedish soil and see my Angel and my mother. It’s going to rock.